Bring it on!

I am ready to tackle the coming week.  I have 3 jobs lined up for this week.  The first one I am not real sure how it will go.  The lady wants to pay $10/hr and for only 4 hours, which is ok but she wants me to go at 10 which kind of makes this job the only one I can do that day.  I will have to insist on going earlier or later in the day because I will have to do another job (eventually) on the same day.  She also said she might need me to go to the store or take her to the doctor once in a while, of course paid.  So its a little weird, but I will see how things go.  I also am going to a friend's house on Wednesday to help her clean out her garage.  I am pretty sure she already has someone come regularly to clean her house but she is so sweet and asked me to help her out.  Nice friend from church.  On Friday I have a house to do and I already seen it and know what is involved.  She is paying $60, so that is fine.  I am looking forward to getting started.  I also am just waiting for some call backs from 3 that are just getting the times figured out.

Ok, so I know that had nothing to do with my weight loss journey but I had to share.  So now I have to make an effort to make it to the gym whereas before I just went whenever I got up and around to it.  I truly admire all you women who have full-time jobs and/or several kids and still make it a priority to go to the gym.  

This week I am going to concentrate on taking in all my water and no fast food.  Being out and about you know how easy it is to just drive thru somewhere and grab a bite.

Today after church we went to Carl's Jr. and I ordered a kids burger and zucchini instead of fries.  My mom looks at my meal and says "Is that all you are going to eat?"  and then she proceeded to offer me at least 4 times some of her burger or some of her onion rings.  My dear husband answered for me, supporting me.  I did have his last bite of jalapeno burger though (boy, was it good).  What was even better was when we left and headed for Walmart for a few things, I thought to myself and then said out loud "I am really full" and I was telling the truth.  I felt satisfied with my puny burger and zucchini (which were good).

This morning I was up one pound so that is why I was determined to get only the kids meal for lunch.  Now it is the end of the night and I will just have to stay away from the kitchen.

Ok..........so water water water and no fast food.  Prepare snacks and have them handy when I am out and about.

Have a great week and I will be back on Wednesday for my weekly weigh in and my monthly measurements.

Update on Lap Band Journey, yeah right!

January 11th  appointment with primary doctor to discuss Lap-Band and get ok from her
January 26th  info just received at Insurance Approval Dept.
Feb 21 or 28th (cant remember which) info sent to Medical Director after repeated calls from me to ask about                                                   status of authorization for CONSULTATION!
March 10 still no answer

I have called everyday for weeks now.  They are only open M-Th and I know they are short staffed but seriously.  This is rather annoying don't you think?

Due to my financial situation and my desperate need to start cleaning some houses for money I have not been real angry or even excited about getting the Band.  I just don't see how I can do it right now (even if I had the ok)  My husband makes pretty good money but it is not enough to pay for everything.  I am trusting in God to provide for us but i am hustling for the jobs.

Anyways, on to bigger and better things.  Below is a couple pictures I took a couple of weeks ago.  They are not the ones I had mentioned before were I was in underwear and a sports bra.  This is still showing enough to see where I need to shed.  Oh and next tuesday will be my measuring day.  I took my measurement last month for the first time.  I think Ronnie did the same.  I have lost 7.5 pounds so far so I am hoping it will show up a little in the measurements.

I feel so huge when I look at these pictures.  Crazy thing is I don't feel like I look.  I know me and Lauren often talk about that.  We are so much cuter than our reflection shows us sometimes.
I could have at least put on make-up or did my hair, that might have helped........lol
Oh well...........that's me........a whole lot to love.

Weigh-In Wednesday

Hello my blog, how are you today?  Have I told you lately that I love you??  Cute little blog you!  LOL

Having followers is really a bonus.  I love to blog.  It is much easier than keeping a journal.  I guess that is just the lazy side of me talking.

Anyways, I have not gained or lost any weight since last wednesday.  Well, you know what I mean.  I did gain a half pound this weekend but by this morning I had lost it.  It only took stepping on the scale 4 times to get this reading.  I weighed at 6am when I got up to get my boy off to school, didnt really like that reading, a couple more times cause readings were different and then when I woke up again (yes I went back to bed after I got him on the bus) and I like that reading so I kept that one.  We women are crazy species aren't we?

I worked out today and yesterday so far this week.  Today I felt very weak and started to shake after my workout but soon after consuming 50g protein I felt good.  The manager at the gym gave me a protein bar she said was an extra (sweet friend) and I had a protein shake waiting in car for me.

I am feeling pretty good right now.  I made a sign for my car for my new cleaning business and I do have a client I am meeting this Friday.  I am so excited to start this.  I also really need the money.

Have a blessed day everyone!

I'm back

Back from the Woman's Retreat.  It was a challenge but I really enjoyed the times I went out to this little area and spent some alone time with God.  I put my phone on a timer and took this picture.  Funny....wonder if anyone seen me do this.  Ha ha  oh well.  I appreciate all the prayers I received from you all.
It was crazy how much we ate.  Three square meals a day.............who does that???? lol  There was good food and I never ate till I was stuffed but I did feel like I had eaten more in those two days then in a long time.  I was dreading any gain I was surely to have.  Although, there was walking and hills so I didn't feel guilty for eating.

So this morning I took my shame walk to my scale and lo and behold I had only gained a HALF pound.  Hallelujah!  haha  So I am back to connecting with my body and only eating when I am hungry.

I will be back to speed with all the blogs soon, bare with me----you guys are busy.  Hope your Monday is fabulous.

My weekend getaway

I am leaving for a woman's retreat in about an hour.  I am experiencing all sorts of emotions.  I am really looking forward to the speaker and becoming closer to God but I have to tell you I am also very stressed out.  Without going into details I will say that someone in the group (thankfully not in my cabin) are no longer close and being in this close proximity to her will be very difficult for me.  For her too I imagine.  We used to be friends.  I made the mistakes.  I am trying to become a better person.  Last I heard we are in van going up to retreat together.  I guess the hard part is pretending to everyone else that everything is ok and normal.  I guess that is all I will say.

I am doing my best to not let my emotions get to me and lead to emotional eating.  I will have my Ativan handy.  As much as I look forward to the events of this weekend I also look forward to getting back home.  I have much to do to get going on my new business venture......house cleaning.

I hope everyone will have a great weekend.  If you are a praying soul please say one for me.  I will be back Sunday night and have lots to read (blogs).  Love you all and welcome to my new followers.  I will follow you too.

Weigh-In Wednesday

Despite my crazy week I managed to lose 5.5 pounds!  Woo Hoo!


All I can say is that I have really been trying to listen to my body and only eat when I feel an emptiness in my stomach.  I did give in last night and have a bowl of raisin bran just cause I wanted it but thankfully it didn't hurt me.  It has been a challenge though, I am an emotional eater and several things have happened in the last couple of days that really make me want to run to the fridge and throw something in my mouth.  I have to really fight it.  This is my battle.  I hope this isn't just a passing thing.


Hope everyone is having a great week.  Ronnie, I love you girl and am so proud of your hard work and weight loss.  You inspire me!

Is this the end of my journey?

Yesterday I got my unemployment check and found out that it is the last one.  This pretty much stressed me out.  We cannot pay the house and rest of bills with just my husbands check.  My mom has just started to help out but not a whole bunch.  Of course I can't tell my mom because it would cause great anxiety and more trips to ER.  So last night I took a sleeping pill and tried to leave my burdens on God.  I did however think "well, thats it for my surgery".  How can I plan that now.  The trips to San Diego, gas money, special foods.  So I was rather bummed out.


Today I finished an application that I had started online for Nurse assistant, which is basically like an orderly and I sent out a message on my facebook that I was available for house cleaning.  A friend who does nails responded back that she has women asking all the time.  She made a little flyer for me and posted it at her work.


So as the day has progressed I have felt better and better.  I don't know about going forward with my surgery but I guess I will take it one step at a time.


Weigh-in Wednesday is tomorrow!