Fears and all that junk

I went back to working as usual this last monday.  I cleaned 7 houses this week.  I'm beat, but mostly because I have come down with a cold.  I woke up this morning with a sore throat and sniffles and I had to tackle a 5 bedroom 4 bath house today too.  Boy was I glad when I got that done.  I ran some errands and got some Nyquil.  I will probably fall face first in about 30 minutes.  Anyways,

I have to admit that I am a bit afraid of food.  I guess I am not feeling like I have control yet.  Dont get me wrong, I have not overdone any eating (since being banded) but I still feel like that could happen.  I dont think I am eating very much now and am doing fine.  No drastic weight loss yet but maybe its cause im not eating enough.  I am lazy though about writing my food intake down..........in fact i havent at all.  I guess I should really do that.

I have to say also that I do not have any problem eating anything ive tried, I can even gulp!  Yes, I gulp! My drink that it.  I think also that there was only one time when I was eating some corn tortillas toasted a bit with butter spray that I felt like I was topping off and couldnt eat any more. 

I am still really just getting used to eating less.  I stop eating way before I want to and it is really hard but I know I need to get used to eating less.  I usually have my protein shake for breakfast which gives me most of if not all my protein that i need for the day so I am not worried about that.

I started walking a couple of nights ago.  Of course I didnt go tonight cause im not feeling good but I am really happy to be back to getting some excercise in.

I'm staring to feel like im kinda scatter brained so I better go.  I hope I made sense.