Mounds Bar anyone??

I wanted to share with you all something that I consider to be a Godsend.

One day I passed a table at Walmart that had some samples and I tried this one.  I immediately thought WOW, I gotta get me some of that.  Unfortunately, these were sold out or nowhere to be found.  I did look a few days later and YES, they were there.  They taste like mounds bar to me.  So now I have my sweet craving taken care of.  It sure does make life easier.


Hope everyone is enjoying there Monday.

True hunger and focus

As far as my goals for this last week goes, I have failed buuuutttt...... let me tell you, I am feeling really good.  I have seriously been concentrating on my stomach the last few days trying to really sense when I am truly hungry and not just desiring to eat.  I started reading this book called "The Weigh Down Diet" and not only am I learning how to really listen to my stomach but I am learning how to turn my attention to God and ask for help.  I have never been very aware of my body so it is a challenge to really understand what true hunger is.  Honestly, I probably have never been truly hungry.  Those of us that are obese probably have that in common that we eat even before our bodies signal it.  So I am enjoying this book and already half-way through it.


I have babbled in the past about my mom and her health issues.  Yes this week was another trying week.  I ended up having to take her to ER (as I mentioned) and trips back and forth can be frustrating but hey, I am not working so I shouldn't complain.  Anyway, a few weeks ago I remember my mom telling me that she was willing to let me tell her how to eat and help her.  Well, when she said that it was when she was in the midst of some sort of an attack and she was desperate for a change.  She really hates being in the hospital.  You might think it is weird that she is asking ME to tell her how to eat but I have really been working hard to eat healthier and making healthy dishes.  Also, my mom is unfortunate to have all her excess weight in her stomach.  She totally looks like she is 9 months pregnant. Her stomach is big and hard.  I know this makes it hard for her lungs.  Now, let me get back to this week.  I have been on my mom's case a little bit about her food.  For instance I made chili and salad one night and she made her bowl (before I could see it) and she covered it with cheese.  When I noticed it I said "look at my bowl, this is how much you should us......a sprinkle".  There was also something else I called her on but I cant recall what it was.  Bad thing is, she would give me a face, like a child.  She is only 56.  Perhaps if she was an old woman she could do that but not her.
Soooooo, I told my husband that I cant..........i just cant try and help her when I am trying to work on myself.  I am a big enough project as it is.  I will continue to cook the healthier meals but I am not going to babysit her.  There isn't any junk food in the house so if she overeats its not like its on chocolate.  She really doesn't eat too bad but because of her health she isn't active.  Oh, get this, she went to the doctor and she lost 6 pounds!  I don't know how, but she loves telling us.  Perhaps it was from her 3 days in the hospital.  Yeah, that's probably it.

Yes, I am going to be selfish and focus on myself.  I am a very moody person and I need to concentrate on making myself healthier.






I need to get back to the gym this week, drink my water and prepare healthy meals for my family whether they like it or not!


Hope everyone has a great week!

Pardon me while I vent...

I have a scream whelling up inside me but I have to remain calm.  I was on my way to the gym and I had to turn around...... Aaarrrghh!


Let me go back.  Yesterday, just as I was about to get ready to go to San Diego my mom is having an anxiety attack so this kind of puts a damper on my mood.  She took her Ativan and an extra already.  These aren't new to her or us so I reluctantly get ready and before I leave I go to her room and she says "go, I can always call an ambulance if I need to".  I tell my son, who stayed home sick to keep an eye on her and get some rest.  So we head out.  About an hour later we call my son and he says my father-in-law took her to the hospital with an asthma attack.  I tell my son to just relax and we will be home in like 5 hours.  So we go through the seminar, learned a few things, met the surgeon (I like him) and we leave.  While we are in the parking lot my hubby calls his dad and finds out that they are already taking her back home.  Usually ER trips take hours ya know.  He can hear my mom say "thanks for the ride" as she gets out.  My husband is frustrated and this leads me to be frustrated and when I am down I get very quiet.  Two hour drive and I probably say 10 words.  We got home about 10:30pm and I dont talk to my mom, just go to bed.  End of day.


This morning I get up and my mom says her anxiety just went away two hours ago.  So maybe my son was confused about reason she went to hospital- anxiety or asthma ??? Anyways, I get ready to head to the gym, say goodbye to hubby (he works 1-9) and I head off.  I am not 2 miles away when she calls me and in a very distressed voice asks me where I am and that she doesn't feel well at all.  I tell her I will turn around.  I get here and she is having anxiety so I reach for her Ativan.  I grab three 3mg and put into her mouth, she grabs them and says Im not going to take that many, I will die, you cant do that.  Imagine a very hysterical, distressed voice.  Ok, so does she think I was trying to kill her?  I told her she has been given that much in the hospital, yes, through the course of a few hours but still.  She was given a prescription for Ativan 2mg before to take when she gets an attack.  Nothing I say helps.  So she takes one.  I tell her she needs to talk to her doctor and maybe get something stronger.  I say Valium.  I wish I had a medicine to just knock her out but she takes Vicodin or Percoset, whichever the insurance will pay for.


This incident just happened and even before I got here I prayed for patience.  She seriously thinks there is something wrong with her heart.  She just said "there has to be a plugged valve".  They have tested and tested her heart over and over and it is fine.


OOOps gotta go, she insists on going to the ER....

Weigh-In Wednesday and Seminar

Simple math

I lost one more pound! Yay!  Probably couldv'e been a bit more but I ate a bit of food late last night.  My head was hurting all day and I needed to take some ibuprofen so I ate, not that I didn't want to eat, I always want to eat.  This last week has been a challenge but I did really well, I am proud of myself.  I also made dinners from the Low fat meals at e-mealz.com.  I am soooo impressed how great they taste.  I will post a recipe when I have more time.


Today my husband and I are traveling to San Diego for the seminar.  It is a beautiful drive about 2 hours over and through some mountains.  I am looking forward to getting out of the valley.  Unfortunately I am going empty handed (no consultation authorization) so I will not be able to make an appointment with surgeon.  I guess they don't do that immediately anyway so hopefully I can ask someone if I can fax it or whatever.  I am not really sure how that works.

This week's goals and other funny stuff

In the Middle Ages, they had guillotines, stretch racks, whips and cahins.  Nowadays, we have a much more effective torture device called the bathroom scale.  ~Stephen Phillips


Just thought I would add that.  It is amazing how we can let the scale dictate how we are going to feel that day.


I have been doing really well.  I completed my goals for last week.  Got to gym twice (would have aimed for more had I not been sick). The water thing is very new to me and such a big deal when I finish my day and smile knowing I have drank my required amount.  Last night was funny though, at 9pm I realize that I have only drank half of my water so I nursed my 64 oz bottle for 45 minutes and finished it.  I knew I would be up peeing all night but I could not let my day slip by without drinking it.  I haven't missed one yet since I mentioned it last week.  I have not eaten any fast food.  My biggest challenge was this weekend in the evening, wanting to snack.  When I did snack I picked some special K crackers (portioned out) and one light laughing cow cheese.  Last night I made some light soup.  I am very proud of myself.


Even this afternoon when my son and I were out running around.  I had to pick up a few things from Walmart and he asked if he could get a burger from McDonalds.  I ordered for him and went and got my things.  I did not get myself anything.  I waited till I got home and had a Lean Cuisine.  VERY COOL!

Funny moment when we were driving home and he says to me "Mom, I cant wait until you get the lap band so when we are having burgers and you cant finish yours then I can have the rest".  He is one of those kids that can scarf down a burger in no time and still want more.  Luckily he gets his dad's genes very slender and fast metabolism.  Im stuck with the German genes - short and round.
  

Ok, on to this week's goals:


1.  Gym, 3 times
2.  64 oz of water a day
3.  No fast food junk
4.  Record my food


Number 4 is my only new one and it certainly is a doozy.  Only time I was good at recording my food was when I was training and my PT was checking it.  I know it is something that I need to do and I am going to copy Lap Band Gal and use post-it notes.  I hope she doesn't mind.  I am inspired by her, she is in maintenance mode and doing great.  I am just a baby, I have a lot to learn.

Thoughts and pictures

Hello everyone and happy friday to you.  I am well on my way completing my goals that I set out for myself this week~~pat on the back~~.  Stopped by the hospital to drop off some stuff for my mom.  Oh yes, she is back in the hospital again.  While I was on the treadmill at the gym yesterday she called me, out of breath, saying she was having an attack.  I had been walking for 45 minutes so I didn't mind jetting out of there.  She stayed in the hospital when her oxygen level keep dropping without the O2 hooked up.  The doctor told her to take a walk and of course she couldn't do it for very long.  My dear poor mom.  Her lungs are in such bad shape.  Of course she has other problems too which is such a huge motivation for me to take care of myself now.  I am a lot like my mom.  I DO NOT want to end up disabled and as unhealthy as she is...AND SHE IS ONLY 56!  She promised me that I could put her on a diet and she would listen instead of pouting like usual.  Like I am an expert right.  Funny thing is, I know exactly what is right and wrong when it comes to food.  Sometimes I have such incredible willpower I surprise myself.  I am happy to say I am in a good spot right now.

I have talked my husband into getting on a diet.  He is one of those guys that can lose it so easy when he puts his mind to it.  He amazes me and drives me crazy.  A couple of years ago we did a crazy motivational diet.  I read in Redbook how a couple was doing there own Biggest loser challenge.  Whomever lost the most for the week didn't have to clean the bathroom.  Well, I changed the motivation part.  We made a list of things we wanted our spouse to do for us.  MEN!  lol.  It was pretty fun.  I lost like 20 pounds but at that time I was 50 lighter than now.  I don't know if I want to do that again but I will consider it.

Ronnie, don't feel weird for posting so much.  I am totally addicted to blogging and I could probably blog a couple times a day.  I would do a vlog but I dont have a webcam or a good camera.  Perhaps when my hubby and I go to San Diego we will get a new computer.  Ours is so old, ok only a few years but man things change so fast.  I don't even have power point on here, which my son needs for school.  Anyway.....I babbling.

Here is a picture of my cat Rocky who passed away last year.  Notice the book he was reading........

I also have a picture of me and my dear husband.  He is a big guy but I am now only a few pounds lighter than him......aaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggghhhhhhhhh!  He used to be about 30 pounds heavier but has lightened up the last couple of years cause of his job.  We make a cute couple don't we??

I mentioned that I had taken some before pics but as I was looking at them the other day I realized that they are kinda revealing.  I mean I am in underwear and a sportsbra in two and just a halter top in the other two (covers bottom) but it is white so you can see every roll I got rolling.  Perhaps when I actually get to the Lap band stage I will be daring enough to show them.  Or perhaps I need to wear a little more, what do you think?

Ok, I better get back to my water bottle, it is not going to drink itself.

What's up so far......

Ok, maybe I am not that frustrated.  I called the Medical Care Group that is supposed to be approving my "Authorization for Consultation".  "It is still pending, but we have recorded on file to expedite".  I have called 3 days this week.  They are closed on Friday sooooooo...Arrrghh!  Next wednesday I am scheduled to attend the seminar and the paperwork I got said I need to bring in the authorization for consultation with me.  I called the surgeons office to ask if I could still go without the info and she said yes, I just wont be able to schedule an appointment to see surgeon.  I am hoping and praying that between Monday and Wednesday (mid-day) that I will get the info and hopefully have it faxed to me and then I can head to San Diego for the seminar with it.  Ok, enough of that.

I have been wondering something and i would love your input.  Included in the packet I am to fill out it the diet failure history attempts and an essay.   Did you all have to write an essay?  Well, that wasn't the question I originally thought of but anyways.  I was wondering about the history; did you include like books you've read? Also, I was wondering if I should include the time I trained with the personal trainer.  He always checked my food diary and gave input.  I trained for 3 months.  I really wish I would've kept better track of all my different diets attempts but why would I......I didn't know I would need that.

I made it to the gym today.  I am still recovering from this cold.  I have the cough, mucus galore and my voice isn't completely back yet BUT I made it.  I walked for 45 minutes.  Not terribly fast but an ok speed.  I have been drinking my water YAY me....

Ok, one more thing.  If any one of you would like to add me to your facebook that would be great JUST PLEASE KNOW I AM NOT TELLING THEM ABOUT MY PLANS FOR WLS.  Take care my dear lovelies and I will be reading you all soon........lol

Weigh-In Wednesday and Incentive Plan

Lost one pound this week, not bad considering I had a run in with some cookie dough last week ~Darn it!~ but I did really well yesterday.  I drank all my water...yah....applause...woo hoo... and I didnt snack after dinner which was a big deal.  I have always craved a sweet after a meal.  In fact I just told my hubby a few days ago that I think I was conditioned to have a sweet after meals due to always having them growing up.  It was so funny, last night soon after dinner I could hear my mom asking my son if he had any valentine's chocolate left that she could have....LOL....I had to chuckle when I heard that.  I too was craving something but I told myself I wouldn't snack after dinner.  One of the last things I said to my husband as he dozed off was how happy I was that I didn't snack........ OK wait a minute...I just recalled that I woke up in the middle of the night and had a sugar free pudding.  Umm, can we not count that?? At least it was a better choice than a bowl of cereal or PB&J sandwich.

I am debating on whether or not to go to the gym today.  I am almost over my cold.  I also have to do the grocery shopping today and take my son to Youth night tonight, so hmmm, guess I will decide after a shower.

So, I have decided to reward each and every pound.  You might recall me mentioning how it was tough to get back to the gym to face a certain trainer, well, I did and he was just glad I was back.  I also, not sure why, but I asked him if he has ever trained someone with Lap Band before and he said Yes.  I mentioned I was possibly getting it.  So that was interesting.  I trained with him for three months last year and loved it.  So I have decided that for every pound I lose I am going to put $5 in a jar to save up for training sessions.  Pretty great idea if I do say so myself.

Recipe.......Peanutty thai noodles.......YUM

I wanted to share this recipe cause it is really tasty and my whole family loves it.  I have never cooked rice noodles before and I was so happy when I tried this new recipe out.  I found it in Fitness magazine.  I also loved how inexpensive this dish is to make.  I only make 1/2 recipe and that feeds 4 so take that into consideration when reading the nutritional facts.

INGREDIENTS
12  ounces  thin rice noodles
2  cups  low-sodium chicken broth
1/4  cup  peanut butter, creamy or chunky
3  tablespoons  reduced-sodium soy sauce
2  cups  fresh or frozen sugar snap peas, thawed if frozen
1/4  cup  chopped fresh cilantro
    Salt
    Freshly ground black pepper
    Juice of 1 lime

DIRECTIONS

Soak the rice noodles in hot water for 10 minutes; drain and set aside.

In a medium saucepan, whisk together the chicken broth, peanut butter and soy sauce. Set pan over medium heat and bring the mixture to a simmer. Add noodles and the sugar snap peas; cook 2 to 3 minutes or until peas are crisp-tender and liquid is absorbed.

Remove from heat; stir in the cilantro. Season to taste with salt and black pepper. Drizzle the lime juice over the top.

Makes 4 servings

Prep time 10 minutes

Cook time 5 minutes

Nutritional facts per serving:  469 calories

12 g protein, 84 g carb, 9 g fat (2 g sat), 4 g fiber

I use fat free swanson broth reduced sodium and I don't add the cilantro.  I also use peas instead of sugar snap peas.  Very easy to make and very forgiving, feel free to try a different vegetable.  I would also suggest using a reduced fat peanut butter to cut fat and calories even more.

Happy Valentine's Day

Hope everyone is enjoying their day.  My husband took me to see "Just Go With It".  It was good.  Besides that my day isn't all that great.  I am still sick, had to take mom to the ER cause of asthma attack and now I have a headache.  I now have to do some laundry or my dear son wont have his favorite "slim straight" jeans to wear to school which will be traumatic for him.


I have decided to make Wednesdays my "Weigh-In Wednesday".  I hope I dont forget........Oh who am I kidding......if you are anything like me you think about food, my weight, my next meal, the scale all the time.  I know this is probably not healthy but perhaps someday in the distant future when I have reached my goal and have learned to naturally maintain my goal weight then I wont be so obsessed with these things.  We shall see......


What is so cool nowadays is that I have come to consider you all my blogger friends.  I have mentioned to my husband "I am gonna do like my blogger friends and .....".  It is so cool.  I read you blogs everyday.  I know some are struggling like me and some are newly banded and trying to work the band and some are in maintenance (ok, maybe only one of those) but I love you all and really do care for you all.  We may never actually get to meet in person but that's ok.......guess technology isnt all that bad huh?

So for this week my will be as follows:

1.  64 oz water a day

2.  no fast food  AND I MEAN IT!

3.  make it to gym 2 times (hope cold is gone by wed)

Ok, so that isnt so much.  Just taking in that amount of water has been a challenge so I need to concentrate on that.  So, let's get to work!

Well, no hiding it now

Well, I did it.  I put a ticker on my blog.  Now, I can no longer hide exactly how heavy I am from my husband (if he chooses to actually look up my blog and see it) and I am forcing myself to agree that I will not get any heavier.  283 is my heaviest and I never want to be that heavy again.  As I type this I am a little concerned cause I have been very sick since last Wednesday and I have been weak and vulnerable.  I have given in to some bad food and I have also been not eating at times so as my week is coming to an end I am faced with weighing myself and praying I haven't gone over 283.  I am thinking that Monday mornings are good for me to weigh in but wondered why others have chosen mid-week weigh-ins.  So......why???

Ok, who got me sick??

Just when I thought my week was going to be great I go and catch a cold.  I haven't a clue where I got it.


As for my goals so far this week.......Well, Monday was such a terrible day and I remember driving my car home wanting to cry but knowing it would make things worse.  Monday I woke up with a headache but tried to go about my day like normal.  I made it to one store for a few things I needed but when I got back home I was feeling worse.  Just as I go to lay down my mom screams for me to take her to the ER.  She is having chest pains.  I took my migraine medicine and didnt tell her I was hurting.  I dropped her off at ER and had to go get some meds she had ordered.  One thing I did do great was drink my water but as I am waiting in the drive thru (Walgreens pharmacy) I have to go to the bathroom soooooooooooooo bad.  Then I realize I need to get my son from busstop very soon so i cant stop.  So as I am driving home this is when I want to cry.  My head is killing me, my bladder hurt like never before and if I didnt have to hurry to get my son I would have pulled over and peed right there.  After I got my son I ran into the house and peed like 30 seconds.  I told him to make himself something to eat cause I needed to lay down.  My migraine went away about 8:30 pm.  Thank God.
Tuesday I had a massage scheduled at 10 am (present from sis-in-law).  It was painful and nice but being face down did something to my sinuses.  Next thing I know I have a sore throat and stuffy nose.
Today I am of course still sick and I havent been drinking enough.  I am weak and know that my goal for the gym is not happening this week.
I am not going to beat myself up.  We all get sick one time or another.  I did slip up with my eating tonight but have been doing really well otherwise. 


Well, I am ready to take my Nyquil and get in bed.  I will catch up on blogs tomorrow.

Ready for my week!

Hello my friends.  I told my husband what I had decided (start eating better) and not just wait for the band to magically appear and I start then.  We went to a concert at our church Saturday night and after we went to Walmart.  I decided to pick up a few things that might help me.  I have read so many blogs and I got this from one of you.  I have never tried them before but I got some of the Laughing Cow cheese and some wheat crackers (cant remember which ones) and I picked up some 100 calorie cookie packs cause I will need something sweet or I will resort to murder and we dont want that.  I also got some sugar free pudding pops.  So anyways, I feel like I am ready to tackle my week.

My first challenge today was after church we went to Carl's Jr.  We have been going there quite a bit and Usually I would get the Teriaki Burger and fries and my Diet Dr. Pepper.  Well, today I opted for a nice salad instead.  I was hungry a few hours later and ate some leftover baked beans and chicken but not much.  Tonight I ate a pasta salad with light italian with cucumber, tomato and olives (at my church) and when I got home I had a can of tuna on top of some tortilla chips.  Chips, not so good for me but I am getting better.  Tuna just had spices and lemon on it.

So I wanted to again state my goals for this week so I know what I am working on.

1.  No candy and/or junk food

2.  No fast food (even a kids meal? NO)

3.  Make it to gym 3 times this week

4.  Drink 64 oz of water a day

I added that last one cause it really is a good one and one I need to work on.

I signed up for E-mealz tonight and am looking forward to planning and making some great meals for my family.  Thank you Amber!!!

Wow, I just noticed its almost midnight.  I better get to bed so I can get my boy up at 6.

I will let you all know if I hear from the doctors office or if I call them back and find out something.  Take care and have a great week.

I don't think I can take it anymore

I am completely frustrated and disappointed with myself.  I am waiting for something to happen and I fear it may never happen.  What Tanya what???  I haven't been banded yet and so I haven't been under any rules or restrictions.  I'm not even close to a pre-op diet.  Heck, I don't even have my seminar till the 23rd of this month.  I called to check on my approval and the Medical Group said call back Monday cause they just got the info on the 26th, which is pissing me off cause I had my PCP appt. on the 11th and they said 10-18 days for approval.  Yeah right.  I went ahead and registered for seminar when I found out the surgeon my insurance will use. 


So why am I so frustrated.  I am waiting for the band to start my life; why am I doing that?  I don't know!  AAAARRRGGHH! 


 I have been eating crap, well tasty crap and making my body worse and worse.  Last night as I lay in bed and prayed and cried to God for help I decided that I need to stop.  I need to do something now.


One of the things that has gotten me down was realizing that I might very well have to do a 6 month doctor supervised diet.  Do I know this for sure??  No, but I have a bad feeling that I will have too.  This absolutely depresses me.  I know you all have been through the waiting game and will say it will go by fast.  I prayed that I may have patience.  "Please God give me patience.......hurry"  lol  I fear God is trying to teach me a lesson.  I hope I am totally wrong and in a month or so will be feeing stupid for venting like this.  I am venting here cause I think my husband might get tired of me talking to him about getting banded.  It really is my whole focus in life right now and I guess that is one mistake.


So, what I have decided to do is start my new life, my new eating life. (I don't want to say diet)    

My first order of business is to eliminate my favorite candy bar.  My mom buys them for me and I buy them for me..........I have to say goodbye and technically I did yesterday when I ate TWO! 

I will have to find a sensible way to kill my sweet tooth.  Any suggestions would be welcome.  I'm thinking the 100 calorie packs.


I have avoided putting a ticker on my blog cause I wasn't sure what my starting weight will be.  I guess that was my way of letting myself keep eating like I have.  Well, if I keep this up I will be 300 pounds in no time.  So I will work on getting one up (not sure how yet) but I want to announce that I am starting my new life at 283.  I am absolutely ashamed of myself and cannot let myself get any worse.  I am having chest pains as I write this.  I have to treat my body better.  Friends, I know I have not been banded and I dont have that to offer to you but I do need help.  I do not have any close friends that I can lean on.  I find inspiration from your blogs and dream of blogging my post band info.


So, this week my goal will be to not eat any junk and no drive thru.  I will keep a protein bar in my purse so I wont have an excuse to do that.  Just those two things are huge steps for me.


Oh, I do have some good to report.  My goal last week was to get to gym 3 times and I did do that.  I will keep that as an additional goal for this week.


Thank you so much for reading (if you are still doing so).  I really needed to vent and get my goals out there.  I hope you all have a fabulous weekend.

"I would like to thank the Academy"

Thank you for the nominations ladies....Mandy's Journey, Canadian Girl with a Band and Jewel in the Rough.  Immmm nnnooootttt wworrrrthy!


I am still very new to the blogging world so I hesitated when I was first nominated. (Do I even follow 15 yet????)  anyways, thank you girls.  Here is a list of 7 things about me and my nominations.


1.   My name is spelled Tanja on my birth certificate.  My mom is from Germany and that is how she spelled it.  I didnt know until I was 14.  My grandma told her to spell it with a y.  My dear mom was learning english so she didnt fight it.
2.   I only have one child.  I had a hysterectomy last year and sometimes still grieve for the girl I will never have.
3.   I am a baby christian.  I was saved last year.  I was headed for no good when God slapped me silly and told me to wake up.
4.   I am unemployed and really wish I could afford to stay home for good.
5.   I am a bit bossy but trying to change that about myself.
6.   I ate a whole box of Girl Scout cookies in one day but you have to admit, the boxes are small.  I know I know ~(head lowered in shame)~
7.   I am totally and utterly addicted to blogging and reading blogs and I love you all.


my nominees..........womem so great that I bet all have already received the award.  These are in no particular order......


1.  Violinist with a band
2.  Ronnie's Bandumentary
3.  Mandy's Journey
4.  Ala Peanut butter BANDwiches
5.  Brave Food World
6.  But you have such a pretty face
7.  Chrissy's World
8.  Diary of a Fat (and often Mad) White woman
9.  Cupcakes and Carrots, a lap band journey
10. Heather's Lap Band Journey
11. Jewel in the Rough
12. Lap Band Gal
13. Fat Girl on the Outside
14. Undercover Banded
15. Ramblings of a drama queen


I know that I am not a bandster yet but hopefully I will be able to encourage others like you all have encouraged me, when I finally get banded. I am thrilled that you all even take the time to read my stuff.  I really am honored to be a part of this crazy blogging world.

Back to the Gym

I am happy to report that I made it to the gym today.  I meant to go yesterday but got a headache.  I don't know about you but I get lots of headaches.  Migraines have been increasing too about 2 a month now.  I know when I lose weight it will get better.  Anyway, yes, I made it to the gym today.  I went about noon which meant that it was almost empty and no trainer to avoid.  I walked at a brisk speed for 25 minutes and did a little with the weights.  It felt nice.  Since I have been the last time they got new treadmills and they are really nice.  I put on my Ipod and watched some Pride and Prejudice.........ok, dont make fun of me.  I love that movie though and didnt have any great music on my Ipod since I accidentally erased it.  


Yesterday I called the Medical Care Group that has to approve my surgery and asked if they had.  At first she said "Yes, just today"  then she said "oh wait, its pending"  but she gave me the surgeons name that they use.  I called his office cause I wanted to know if it takes a while to get an appointment.  The receptionist told me I have to go the seminar so I registered for that.  Unfortunately, that isn't until the 23rd of this month.  So, I have to wait 3 weeks for that.  I'm wondering if I should call and find out about other tests I can have done until then.  What do you think????


I will have the surgery in San Diego which is about 2 hours away.  It is a nice drive though.  


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